Hi Stillclimbing,

It sounds like you are winning the battle against the depression.
How else could you be able to fool so many others that you were happy?

Now... all that you need to do is convince yourself of the fact that you are doing a great
job and not fall back into any doubt about it.

There are many who put up false fronts to look better to the world around them..
Not even in Hollywood is everything rosy.
You don't think that Bernie Madoff was a completely truthful person do you?

A truly depressed person is more likely to think that they are NORMAL and the rest of the World is screwed-up.
You are overburdened and overworked and trying to appear that all is well.
That is a sign of being a Beast Of Burden, trying to maintain a life for your kids.
You don't need medication as much as you need a caring partner and a shoulder to lean on.
When is the last time you and your Husband had a real date ?
What about a week in the Bahamas? It might be just what you need.

Re: the Acid Reflux.. It can cause anxiety and heart-related symptoms.. but if it is rare, then you know it
is not a real problem.